IT’S OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY.

    JUMPER – H&M http://www2.hm.com/en_gb/ladies/shop-by-product/knitwear.html?product-type=ladies_knitwear&sort=stock&offset=0&page-size=60  JACKET – TOPSHOP http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/CatalogNavigationSearchResultCmd?langId=-1&storeId=12556&catalogId=33057&Dy=1&Nty=1&beginIndex=1&pageNum=1&Ntt=CHECKED%2BJACKET&dimSelected=%2FN-dgl%3FNo%3D0%26Nrpp%3D20%26Ntt%3DCHECKED%252BJACKET%26seo%3Dfalse%26siteId%3D%252F12556%26langId%3D-1%26storeId%3D12556%26catalogId%3D33057%26Dy%3D1%26Nty%3D1%26beginIndex%3D1%26pageNum%3D1   In the light of it being Mental Health Awareness Day yesterday. I decided to touch up on my mental health and how I deal with my anxiety and what I’m doing to change it. Yesterday the internet was such a positive place, all the quotes all the natural and pure pictures everyone was sharing because for that one day everyone remembered to love themselves and to be okay to not be okay 100% of the time.  The past few months have been a real struggle for me. I had my whole world flip up side down. My daily, weekly, night time routines all stopped. My little security blanket was suddenly gone and I had to deal with life on my own. I definitely realised how much I depended on someone, but was they really going to be there forever? no. Everything that has happened the past few months made me realise I needed to be stronger in myself and be able to stand alone without the fear of falling apart. My anxiety has definitely been at it’s highest the past few months from missing amazing opportunites because I got scared and ran, to turning around in a carp park because i got too anxious to attend a job interview. Life changing opportunities that would benefit me I let slip because of my anxiety and being too scared of judgement. This is not how to live your life.  So after all the positivity and amazing support we all shared yesterday I’m making a change. I’m going to start saying yes. Not put my car into reverse because it doesn’t matter if I don’t get the job, or if a guy doesn’t find me attractive; someone will hire me, and I will find my future husband one day.  So if you’re like me and have been feeling really un motivated and useless, don’t give up remember where you wanna be and don’t give up on yourself. because it’s YOU who will be there when you need a pick up.